Be my muse

Every night I fall asleep with a clear conscience. It is a true blessing, every morning I wake up sober. I make the most out of my day. My mind is always filled with dreams & hopes for my future, and when I let go of the rains, I am amazed at what manifests.

I make the same singular choice everyday and that is that under any circumstance’s I will not drink, I seek purpose, and meaning. I keep my heart, ears and soul open to receive what ever my goddess has in store for me.

Today I am free, in every sense of the word. I know who I am, I know that even though my life experiences defy me to a certain extent that it does not encase who I am as a person, I am not simply an alcoholic or drug addict that has depression, I am so much more than that. I wake up everyday with self-esteem and courage, wisdom and power. Had I still been drinking I would not have discovered these traits of myself.

I still don’t see what others see, my self image is still distorted, if I had to describe how it looked I would say, it is a abstract like Picasso, surreal in nature.