My voice will not be silenced
I command respect
I speak for those who cannot be herd
One against a million
Seems impossible
I remember that feeling of fighting anyone who came into contact with me, or who came into my life
I was hurting on the inside
Longing for peace
That I thought would never come
One day I realized I was only fighting myself
Beating myself up viciously
I had been beating myself up for so long that I forgot why I was doing it
All I knew was that I loathed myself
It took many years of work on myself to even fathom that I could once again love myself
Others loved me with out hesitation, unconditionally and forever
Unfortunately all the love in the world could not save me
I thought that if I hated myself for long enough that others would give up on me
After all I had
But something inside me told me that this was not my time to go and that I had some purpose to live out
I did not know what it was or where to start
The year I turned 24 was the end of one life and the beging of another
I even had the oddest feeling
It was the day of my birthday and I was on the skytrain
All of a sudden I had this feeling that I was going to die
At first I thought it was literally maybe I was having a premonition
But it was not
The feeling meant that the old me died, that very day.
Since that day I have never looked back
Every step, every decision has been to better my life and to heal the hurt that was within me
I am now on a path that is greater than anything I could hope for myself
Something greater than me has been watching over me my whole life
Guiding me to this moment, this time in my life
He has given my a glimpse of the greatness I can achieve
Something I never thought myself worthy of
My only hope is that maybe in some way my words may be of some help to anyone
If I have reached only one person
Then I can die a happy woman
I command respect
I speak for those who cannot be herd
One against a million
Seems impossible
I remember that feeling of fighting anyone who came into contact with me, or who came into my life
I was hurting on the inside
Longing for peace
That I thought would never come
One day I realized I was only fighting myself
Beating myself up viciously
I had been beating myself up for so long that I forgot why I was doing it
All I knew was that I loathed myself
It took many years of work on myself to even fathom that I could once again love myself
Others loved me with out hesitation, unconditionally and forever
Unfortunately all the love in the world could not save me
I thought that if I hated myself for long enough that others would give up on me
After all I had
But something inside me told me that this was not my time to go and that I had some purpose to live out
I did not know what it was or where to start
The year I turned 24 was the end of one life and the beging of another
I even had the oddest feeling
It was the day of my birthday and I was on the skytrain
All of a sudden I had this feeling that I was going to die
At first I thought it was literally maybe I was having a premonition
But it was not
The feeling meant that the old me died, that very day.
Since that day I have never looked back
Every step, every decision has been to better my life and to heal the hurt that was within me
I am now on a path that is greater than anything I could hope for myself
Something greater than me has been watching over me my whole life
Guiding me to this moment, this time in my life
He has given my a glimpse of the greatness I can achieve
Something I never thought myself worthy of
My only hope is that maybe in some way my words may be of some help to anyone
If I have reached only one person
Then I can die a happy woman
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